Personal Journal

August 10, 2021

Day 13 – August 10, 2021

I was awake all night. It may just be anxiety about Lewis. After telling him about my criminal history and answering his questions. I believe him when he says that my past is not a problem for him, but that little girl that still thinks she is not enough, that she’s not worthy of his love, is scared to death. I keep thinking that one day he is going to wake up and wonder what he was thinking to want to be with me. At the same time, I’m determined to make sure that he never regrets pursuing me.

I am not used to feeling like this, nervous and unsure. It’s crazy, but I know he’s the one, THE ONE, and I don’t want to screw it up. He dedicated another song to me this morning. It’s romantic and sweet, like him.