Personal Journal

August 16, 2021

Day 18 – August 16, 2021

I’m so full of feelings for Lewis I needed to express it. I haven’t written poetry in forever, but I wrote something today just for him. Then I found a beautiful background and saved it as a picture file to send to him as his good morning message.

I got myself together and sat down to have my video chat with my big sister. We do this almost every Monday to talk about a multitude of things, her grandson, her friends, my friends, her husband, my books, and today she asked about Lewis. I don’t usually discuss my romantic life with my sister.

She, of course, wants me to be cautious. She watches a lot of shows like Charmed to Death and Snapped. My sister wants to make sure that he’s not using me. I got tickled and pointed out that I have nothing of physical value for him to swindle me out of. If anything, he should be concerned about me being the crooked one because of my background and that I’m struggling financially.

I love her for her concern, and of course, she is worried that he may be a psycho killer kind of person. That could be, but I don’t believe him to be anything like that. I assured her that we are taking things slowly. What my sister doesn’t know is that I’m a catfish aficionado. I know how to get information on him if I ever feel the need to do so. I want our relationship to be about trust. A relationship can not survive if there is no trust.

After her big sister speech, she told me that she plans to have a dinner party for her 60th birthday in February. She wants me to be her MC. Sometimes I hate that they (my family) figured out that I have a knack for ensuring fun at social events. I will, of course, do this, and we will all have a great time, but the pressure is on for me to outdo my last party for her. At least I have six months to work on it.

Later I mentioned this to Lewis, who said he can’t wait to see me MC the event. I told him to save the date. Then I texted my sister to let her know that I invited Lewis. She said she can’t wait to meet him if he’s still around by then. He’s not going anywhere. I know it, and so does he. It is everyone else that needs to get with the program.

This conversation had me thinking about when we would meet for the first time. I expect to spend Christmas together for sure. I want him to spend it with me. Maybe we’ll spend Thanksgiving together as well. Oh shit, I’m planning holidays with my man!